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Anne Goodwin’s drive to understand what makes people tick led to a career in clinical psychology. That same curiosity now powers her fiction.
A prize-winning short-story writer, she has published three novels and a short story collection with small independent press, Inspired Quill. Her debut novel, Sugar and Snails, was shortlisted for the 2016 Polari First Book Prize.
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My locked-up novel’s #lockdown #bookbirthday … and virtual choral singing

25/5/2020

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The writer’s life is riddled with disappointment, so we need to celebrate the successes when we can. When I’ve remembered – which I haven’t always – I’ve marked the publication-day anniversary for my books. For my second novel’s third birthday this month, I had in mind to write something on the theme She never intended to write a thriller, echoing the opening line of the blurb: He never intended to be a jailer, but the universe knew better. (As it did on this novel’s first anniversary – I don’t know what happened to the second – when I was so moved by the warrior women of Ireland coming home to vote for reproductive rights, I threw the plan away and wrote about the importance of normalising abortion in fiction.) This year, I’m wondering about the parallels between a fictional character who seeks to resolve a relationship crisis by keeping a woman captive in a cellar, and our current experiences of lockdown.
Exploring the echoes of the pandemic in my forthcoming novel, Matilda Windsor Is Coming Home, about a brother and sister separated for fifty years against the backdrop of the longstay psychiatric hospital closures, I found references to a deadly virus; self-isolation versus online connectivity; high hopes versus pointlessness; keeping busy, bathroom behaviour and (although not included in the post) gallows humour. Will I find as many parallels for Underneath?
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Aside from the obvious scenes with the woman trapped in the cellar, totally dependent on her jailer, the novel features other characters more conventionally locked up. One is Steve’s – the narrator’s – mother, so befuddled by dementia she doesn’t even recognise her son, living in a care home where the outside doors are locked for the residents’ safety. But late in the novel, when Steve goes to visit – something so sadly denied today’s care home residents – he reveals some of his unravelling psyche in his frustration at being unable to see how to get in (p224):

I leant my weight against the outer door, but it refused to yield. I rattled the handle, pulled it back and forth, and pushed again. Sweat cooled on the back of my neck as I stepped back, wondering what to do. Through the double layer of glass, I detected some movement down the corridor. I pounded on the door, but the figure moved out of range. I felt as useless as the old geezer I remembered from my last visit. What kind of place was this, with no way in or out? Frustration made me kick the doorjamb; okay, I had no strong desire to see my mother, but now I was furious to think they’d shut me out.

Steve might be furious, but I’m fuming fit to explode! Now that the beacon of Tory ineptitude and neglect has transferred from hospitals to care homes, literally in some cases, with elderly patients discharged from hospital with suspected, but untested, covid19 and inadequate facilities or training for isolation, the fictional situation for Steve’s mother seems idyllic in comparison.

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The contemporary care home catastrophe is exacerbated by fragmentation and privatisation of an essential service, all part of the politics of unkindness. Let’s return to the novel for some light relief! (Although not forgetting that the pandemic will impact similarly in residential mental health services.) Earlier in the novel, Steve has had the opposite experience when gaining access to the secure psychiatric unit where his girlfriend, Liesel, works as an art therapist (p85):
The forensic mental health service was housed in a two-storey building with a pitched slate roof. No fence marked the perimeter, no bars stretched across the small windows on the upper floor, yet the place had a boxed-in feeling, corralled by cars parked on double yellow lines and overshadowed by the old red-brick asylum farther up the hill. A plaque set into the wall by the glass door announced its opening twenty years before by some minor royal. Getting inside proved a little too easy.

There are some clues to Steve’s adult personality in his childhood experiences with no father, a depressed mother and bullying older sisters. Some scenes in flashback show his often unsuccessful attempts to carve out a space for himself in the family and at school, and also when the children are temporarily taken into care and the little boy becomes obsessed with rescuing a caged bunny (p197-8):

The mummy rabbit wouldn’t notice if one of the babies went to live somewhere different. As long as she had lots of lettuce, she wouldn’t mind. She might even be glad if the little black and white one got adopted. If it had a little boy to look after it, cuddle up to it at night.

Just a minute! Are rabbits caged in hutches really relevant to the contemporary lockdown? Is there a bigger animal – an elephant maybe – I’m avoiding? Clearly, the strongest parallel between Steve incarcerating someone in the cellar of his house relates to women and children locked up with their abusers although, once again, the novel treads more gently than real life. I’ll leave you to read it to find out how!
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We can’t stay in touch with the unkindness too long or we risk going as crazy as Steve. But some of our usual strategies for taking care of ourselves are unavailable in lockdown. As an introvert accustomed to hours talking to no-one but my computer, it’s business as usual for me in many ways, but I do miss singing in a mixed-voice choir.
I’ve been marvelling at the creative ways people have switched to connecting online. I was very excited when I heard about the self-isolation choir but, joining midway through the rehearsals, and unable to find the time to play catch-up, I won’t be part of the online performance of the Messiah next weekend. (Although I did have a few laughs at myself attempting to record an inadequately-practised chorus.) But I’m primed to join in the next phase right from the start.
Of course, it’s impossible to completely replicate the real-world experience of singing for a live audience surrounded by others, backed up by, at best, an orchestra, or, at least, a piano. In fact, the first rehearsal I attended online left me quite bereft. With social distancing likely to be required for some time, large gatherings, like choirs, won’t be assembling for a while. Probably not until we have a vaccine, I’d been thinking. Then I read this article in the Guardian at the weekend on What if we never find a vaccine? and realised, as with going into lockdown, I’m not quite the entrenched pessimist I claim to be.
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I’ll be gutted if I can’t ever meet with my regular choir again, but of course it’s far too soon to tell. Meanwhile, even it’s managed to go online and is keen to recruit new members from around the world. I don't know if it's because I’m familiar with the conductor and/or because the pieces are so much easier, I’ve enjoyed it more than the isolation choir. We do a mix of classical, traditional and folk/old-fashioned-pop in four-part harmonies and you don’t have to be able to read music or sing particularly well to take part. No-one will hear you! If you’d like to try, let me know and I’ll pass on the details. If – as I was ten years ago – you’re a non-singer who feels you’ve missed out, this might be your opportunity to find out if it’s for you!

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Accepting the challenge to write a 99-word story about 100 candles, I thought of book birthdays and choirs. I calculated that, if I don’t publish anything else after Matilda Windsor Is Coming Home, next year, my four books will reach their collective centenary in 23 years’ time. What will I be doing then? Hopefully it won’t be too different to this time last year!
The icing on the cake
 
Embracing redundancy in her early fifties, Anne joined a retirement choir. Thirty years on, her musicality, crescendoing steeply initially, is in decline. But here the social notes beat as strongly as the vocals, as this introvert recognised way back in the 2020 lockdown for covid19.
 
When the pianist rattles into “Happy Birthday”, Anne belts out the soprano line. But that cake, coming towards her with ten times ten socially-distanced candles, is fifteen years premature.
 
Thanks to the breathing exercises, she quenches them in two puffs. Revealing, in fondant icing, her first four book covers, reaching their collective centenary today.

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8 Comments
Norah Colvin
25/5/2020 10:55:16 am

Great flash. Happy book birthday, and happy books centenary in 23 years time. I don't think it will really take that long though. Surely there are more to come after Matilda Windsor's homecoming. I certainly hope so.
I think this lockdown is getting to all of us. Fortunately for us here in Australia, we lockeddown before it was too late. I just hope we're not coming out of it too soon.
I look forward to seeing you perform in the online choir. Enjoy!

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Anne
26/5/2020 12:02:57 pm

Thanks, Norah, I hope for more books too -- my aim was to match my shoesize, but who knows?

So do you fancy joining in the online choir? I'm sure you would if you had time to spare.

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Norah Colvin
27/5/2020 01:30:46 pm

If only I could sing, Anne. 😉

Anne
29/5/2020 03:45:35 pm

Said this before and will keep on saying it – it's not your singing but inadequate teaching! I'm sure if you could clone yourself into a music teacher you'd be warbling away.

Norah Colvin
4/6/2020 11:53:17 am

I'd hoped you see the wink in my previous comment, Anne. I was teasing due to our previous conversations on the topic. :) If I only had time ... only time.

Anne
6/6/2020 04:25:55 pm

Sorry, but the link doesn't get you out of the admonishment! Just realised I was meant to be singing Brahms Requiem today. Which reminds me that the weather was as crappy this time last year as it is now – cold and damp after a prolonged hot spell.
PS I know this is of no relevance to you at all!

Charli Mills
28/5/2020 06:14:51 am

Anne, happy third anniversary of your second book! You wrote a BOTS -- stretching yourself in confinement. Your choir is expanding, too but I also understand the concern for ever getting in groups again. I was also thinking along the lines of "what if they don't find a vaccine." How that would alter our lives or would we revolt? COVID is showing the cracks in our systems, especially how we isolate our elderly. Great flash!

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Anne
29/5/2020 03:48:48 pm

Thanks, Charli. I wondered if it would count as a BOTS when it's about a hypothetical future! I was interested that I HADN'T thought "What if there is no vaccine?" Obviously I was overly optimistic again!

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